ground control to rachel...earth to rachel...come in...over.

And and and...

Well he didn't forget Valentine's Day, he went to pick up a delivery he had waiting for him and was showing me the stuff he bought for himself as I was getting irritated and then reached in the bottom of the box playing surprised..."What's this?" and pulled out a little black jewelry box. He got me pretty hoop diamond earrings. Awwwww. I really don't need a gift, I would be happy with a kiss and a card, I wasn't expecting jewelry.

And then we got in a fight because his ex girlfriend invited him to her son's graduation in Arizona and he said I couldn't go with him because he was afraid she might get jealous and try to beat me up! Hello!? And you are entertaining the thought of going WHY??? He doesn't have a relationship with this kid, was not close to him when they were together and hasn't seen him in over a decade. He didn't even attend his own sister's graduation and is entertaining the thought of going to his ex's son's graduation WHY? Because of his ego. It is always ego with men. So I let him know that if he goes somewhere where I am not welcome, it is an insult to me and to my kid. Some of the problems we have been having stem from him not quite being "a kid's type of guy". He doesn't know how to relate to them therefore doesn't try. I alsmost ended it over this because I will not have someone in my life who doesn't put an effort into my kid. I mean, I know it is hard coming into an "instant family" but the reality is, when you choose to pursue a single mother, you are signing up to be a father figure whether you like it or not. But I digress, the point is, he is not going.

*ahem*

In other news, I GOT A JOB!!! And just in the nick of time too, I was notified last week that my unemployment benefits are cut off. I get paid vacation, holidays and I am making good money which is a relief because I couldn't find anything for over $15 an hour that I qualified for being that I don't have a college degree. I am hoping in 6 months or so he will give us insurance. I hate not having health insurance for my son. My new boss is totally cool, said "I want you to want to come to work. I want to be your friend, not seen as a boss." So I am his executive admin assistant and I also get to reshoot his entire skin care product line. My photography, admin experience and property management background all come into play here and I am so glad I waited for the right thing. He let me choose my own hours and said I can ease back into full time so I am going M-F 10-2 which allows me to still drop off and pick up my son at school which is a huuuuge relief because I have this weird guilt about putting him in daycare.

I am getting straight A's in all my classes and my boyfriend has been randy lately.

I have been shooting like a madwoman. Photoshoots:

Rika

Chandra

I am really happy with these shoots and managing to not display any bitterness whatsoever even though I have had 1 last minute cancelation and 2 girls just outright flake, no phone call, nothing, just didn't show up which sucks because I clear the day or evening for the shoot, have to make my boyfriend move his car, spend an hour setting up my studio and then no one shows up. Very rude. Sunday's girl outright flaked and then tried to add me as a friend on Myspace today. Fuck you. OK maybe there is a little bitterness but not in general. In general, I love people. Except for the stupid ones. And stuck up ones. And shallow ones. And liars...errrrrm...I love cool people who have big hearts and aren't stupid. How's that?

Things are looking up. :?)

Now that I have a job...pay off credit cards and buy a muscle car. Hell fucking yes.

posted by Rachel @ 9:14 AM