ground control to rachel...earth to rachel...come in...over.

Stagnant

Now that the excitement of my first exhibit and the two television spots I did have died down, I bit the bullet and got myself a fulltime admin job to make ends meet. It was a tough decision but it had to be done. I do not have the luxury of being a starving artist and living cheap until my next gig. I am a single mom, I have a mortgage, I have *gasp* responsibilities. For the first time in my life, I am really doing it alone since I moved away from my family a year ago. But it is worth being in Los Angeles, this area is far more eclectic and creative in general than the Bay Area. To me, at least. So, 40 hours a week, I can tolerate a soul sucking admin job for the paychecks that will grant me the peace of mind I need to not stress every single day. The only thing that sucks about it (other than having not being able to do what you love fulltime) is that it drains so much energy that lately, I am not on point with my art. The last few shoots, even though my work has gotten positive feedback (thanks everyone who commented), just did not feel up to par to me. I definitely need to get back into the groove.

Until then, I will keep trying. )

I am grateful for the love of the art...I am grateful that I am good at it...getting better all the time...I am grateful that no matter what, I am teaching my son to never give up and the only failure in life is to stop trying.

hope all are well and remember, "we are the makers of music and the dreamers of dreams..."

posted by Rachel @ 7:17 PM